Not going to cry.


Women’s High-Rise Skinny Jeans – Wild FableTM Galaxy Black • $15
Wild Fable Women’s Cropped Square Neck Tank Top – Wild FableTM • $3
Universal Thread Women’s Long Sleeve Open Neck Cardigan – Universal Thread • Universal Thread • $29.99
Wild Fable Women’s Square Sunglasses – Wild FableTM Pink • $15
Kate Spade New York Women’s Leopard Summer Run Wild • $109.03

I am having a rough time of it. My diastisis reci is really getting on the last nerve I have. I am trying so hard to get back into shape and be able to wear jeans without it feeling like it is pushing things down. I hate how this all feels. And then the swelling, oh my gosh the swelling! These shoes, I wore them long enough for the pictures and then when I took them off the shoes were stuck on my feet. And then they left horrible marks.  I posted about it on my instagram stories. It is so hard, and I am trying to keep it together. I am trying to keep my tears in. It is really upsetting.

 

You just want to be normal. You want to feel normal. You want to look “normal” . And not look like everything hurts and everything looks uncomfortable to  wear. I feel so out of it. The jeans I have on are one size that fit a day ago or so, and then today, nope. And left marks on my legs. Marks from the swelling on the legs and the feet. I could feel it in my face. I hate this. And I WILL NOT CRY. Or at least cry where my kids can see. I don’t want them to see me upset. My oldest feels it so hard to his core and I love that little man for that. But, The last thing I need him to see is the body negativity I feel.  I feel awful for that. Just awful, so I feel awful for the body issues and then feeling sick.  I hate this whole feeling . I want to cry but I feel like I shouldn’t.  Is it the “mom guilt” ? I feel so bad and then hate hate myself for feeling bad over something I can not control! The cycle is unending! Never ends and it drives me crazy. If you are feeling like this, know this, you are not alone. Not alone.

 

Well, let’s talk the outfit. It is a fashion blog after all. LMAO.  I was typing that with a bit of sarcasm and humor.  So I am wearing the softest and most comfortable cardigan from Target! Love it! And wearing a simple tank top with the jeans from Target that do not fit today. This outfit is perfect for fall! I just love it!

My outfit

Women’s High-Rise Skinny Jeans – Wild FableTM Galaxy Black • $15
Wild Fable Women’s Cropped Square Neck Tank Top – Wild FableTM • $3
Universal Thread Women’s Long Sleeve Open Neck Cardigan – Universal Thread • Universal Thread • $29.99
Wild Fable Women’s Square Sunglasses – Wild FableTM Pink • $15
Kate Spade New York Women’s Leopard Summer Run Wild • $109.03

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6 Comments

  • Jill October 1, 2019 at 7:40 AM

    I’m sorry you have been so uncomfortable but you look gorgeous! I love the color and length of your cardigan!

    Jill – Doused in Pink

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    • Stephanie October 2, 2019 at 9:58 PM

      Thank you so much Jill, It is super soft too! Not itchy at all!

      Reply
  • Gabrielle October 2, 2019 at 4:01 PM

    I’m so sorry you’re feeling sore and uncomfortable right now Stephanie and – although I don’t know much about the condition – I truly hope this passes for you as soon as possible! Thinking of you xx

    aglassofice.com x

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    • Stephanie October 2, 2019 at 9:57 PM

      I hope so too, it is really hard to function some days. Thank you for your kind words Gabrielle!

      Reply
  • juliettsstyleglam October 3, 2019 at 10:51 AM

    Hahaha I was going to start crying too. I think women should speak up about these things cos it makes us relatable and strong knowing we’re aren’t alone. I love the gilet and sandals. Beautiful

    Reply
  • mireille October 3, 2019 at 11:41 AM

    You look lovely and we would not have guessed you were uncomfortable. Thanks for being honest. Hope it improves!
    http://www.chezmireillefashiontravelmom.com

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