I have to make a confession. I am so proud of my son’s accomplishments. Him, being on the spectrum, can mean that learning can be a bit harder in some areas. But he is thriving, and that makes me so happy. He is a good kid in school, lots of the littles like him enough. So, why can I not shut the lady of fear up that makes me worry constantly about bullying?
Let me set the stage, in a sort of Sophia Petrillo from Golden Girls kind of way.
Picture it,1993 or was it 1994? Anyways, a little girl was in elementary school. And she was picked on, a lot by a group of mean girls. The girls would push her up and down concrete stairs. The girls would get the other boys in class to be mean to her. They would take knit hats and put them over her whole head making it impossible to breathe. All falling under the teacher’s blind eye. She would just turn away, and then pick on the girl as well. Then when the little girl told adults what would happen, the bullying would get worse, much worse. And she was terrified of going to school. Bullying happened off and on even through Jr High. When girls she thought were her friends one day decided to be awful. They called her and had her crush on the other line without her knowing(or so they said. don’t recall if they really did or not). And made a fool of her, they kept calling and kept harassing the girl. Threatened her constantly and made fun of her best friend who didnt even go to that school. And tried to turn people against her. Luckily people saw through it or mostly saw through it. It was hell for the girl and some of it or most of it she didnt tell her parents. OR for the phone calls they were not home but the girl knew from past experience that it would make matters worse. And so the girl suffered from anxiety, stopped eating well while at school, and got sick a lot. High school wasn’t much better.
Guys the girl in this story, was me. I was relentlessly bullied in school.
As a mom of a child with special needs I constantly worry about him having similar problems. The thing is a lot of kids who have disabilities have a higher chance of these occurrences. I fear for him, I worry. Those experiences stuck with me, those demented life experiences were terrible. And they really can screw a person up. All I can do is reassure him and keep explaining what it is.
It worries me, I do not want him to go through what I went through. And I kept it hidden, from true friends and from my parents. I kept it hidden from the teachers and administrators, because of experience where things got way worse. I do not want my son to go through that, and part of me is worried he wont understand he is being bullied. Words hurt, but the bullying I endured was also physical on numerous occasions.
I know I am not the only parent that worries about this. I know that. And I just hope that we as parents can teach understanding and that if our kids bully we will as their parents retaliate and make them make it right. I know I will if my son was the bully. I take that pledge! Because a lot of it starts at home.
So now on to the outfit. This dress, is oldish. I got it from the collaboration Victoria Beckham did with Target. I went crazy with it, unfortunately some things were out of stock. But I got the Calla Lilly pants and dress and the bunny dress. I just wish that there was a boy’s line to compliment the ladies.
I decided to wear it with my fave color of the season, GREEN. This bright green Michael Kors bag goes perfectly with the dress and being lazy as hell, I wore the most prominent shoe on the blog at the moment, the blinged out sandal slide.
#sorrynotsorryDress: Victoria Beckham for target I love this dress here that is similar in style
Shoes: Target similar
Bag: Michael Kors similar
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