H&M swimwear // trying to be body positve.

H&M swimwear // body positive#fashion #swimwear

Ever since my depo nonsense last year, I have been struggling hard core with my weight. Thinking my body is a massive mess, never mind the fact I had a baby last year and then went on medication after medication. AS well as getting put on a birth control method that may have ultimately ruined my thyroid. Depo can do that folks. I realize that this is something that a lot of women struggle with, and while there are a lot of woemn that embrace themselves no matter what. I just have a hard time doing it. Those damn eating disorder monsters rear their ugly heads, and she is a massive bitch. The same demons that said I was too big when I was 89 lbs in highschool. You never see yourself in a good light when recovering from that friends. NEVER. It gets easier to tell the bitch to go away, but she never leaves. NEVER.

H&M swimwear // body positive#fashion #swimwear

So, my mentality when I see me in a swimsuit right now is basically the vomit face emoji. This is awful, I know. But, one thing on my blog is that I keep shit real, really real. I am a REAL HOUSEWIFE. (couldn’t help myself) So, I am here posting a swimwear post, as a way to shut the evil bitch up. And also share the fact that H&M has some really cute swim, swim that is in CUP sizes YALL, not just XS to XXL! Cup sizes! AAHHH I love that, because yeah even though my butt is smallish(i have no idea what to call it right now) the girls are not small!

H&M swimwear // body positive#fashion #swimwear

So here is me, in all my swimwear glory and weird shapeness. Being body positive for everyone else comes easy. For myself it comes with resentment and anger. Anger for the depo and resentment for hating my own body!

UGH!

I decided when shooting these pictures that no make up or photoshopping my saggy mom tum. So no photoshop except for lighting and blemishes(pimples, damn pms)

H&M swimwear // body positive#fashion #swimwear

I decided when shooting these pictures that no make up or photoshopping my saggy mom tum. So no photoshop except for lighting and blemishes(pimples, damn pms)
H&M swimwear // body positive#fashion #swimwear
I decided when shooting these pictures that no make up or photoshopping my saggy mom tum. So no photoshop except for lighting and blemishes(pimples, damn pms)
I decided when shooting these pictures that no make up or photoshopping my saggy mom tum. So no photoshop except for lighting and blemishes(pimples, damn pms)
H&M swimwear // body positive#fashion #swimwear

Cat & Jack Baby Boys’ Under The Sea Swim Trunks – Cat & Jack Navy • Cat & Jack • $8
Cat & Jack Baby Boys’ Long Sleeve Sea Creatures Raglan Rash Guard – Cat & Jack Navy • Cat & Jack • $8
Francesca’s Layla Tortoise Cat-eye Sunglasses – Tortoise • francesca’s • $14
A New Day Open Woven Straw and Tassel Earrings – A New Day Ivory • $9.99
H&M – Kaftan with Tie Belt – Beige • H&M • $12.99
H&M – Super Push-up Bikini Top – White • H&M • $19.99
H&M – Bikini Bottoms – White • H&M • $14.99

H&M swimwear // body positive#fashion #swimwear
H&M swimwear // body positive#fashion #swimwear
H&M swimwear // body positive#fashion #swimwear

4 Comments

  • Molly May 28, 2019 at 8:19 PM

    Hi Stephanie! I follow your blog almost daily but I haven’t commented on any of your wonderful posts in a while. I’m so sorry! I love this post! Thank you so much! It takes so much courage to post something like this when you admittedly are less than 100% confident. I feel the same way about myself sometimes. It’s been hard to realize and be comfortable with the fact that I’m not 20 years old anymore. You look beautiful and I know you’ll get to where you want to get to in time. You’re such a strong and inspiring woman that I know you will!

    Reply
    • Stephanie May 30, 2019 at 1:30 PM

      THank you so much Molly! It is difficult but one thing I try to do is keep it real here. I want others to know they aren’t alone. Thank you for alaways reading!!!!! I appreciate it.

      Reply
  • Laura Bambrick May 30, 2019 at 11:01 AM

    You honestly look amazing! I love that pretty bikini on you! You are inspiring so many other mamas to feel confident about their bodies too. You gave birth to 2 amazing boys! Your body is a temple! It created 2 miracles!

    Reply
    • Stephanie May 30, 2019 at 1:28 PM

      Thank you so much for that! It is cute, I am just so hard on myself over it was that way too before kids .

      Reply

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